Oops, we did it again.

So the other day at dinner my Dr. Pepper didn't taste right and I decided I preferred a Coke.  That's when I knew.  Add that up with total exhaustion, raging hormones, acne and dizziness and I decided to confirm it.  Yup, we are pregnant again.  If you are in my "circle" you already know this, but we have held off any broad announcement due to it being so early.  Not many read my blogs anyway, so I decided to start talking about this, um, journey.  This pregnancy feels so different already.  I'm weak, dizzy and nauseous.  I had to quit taking my anxiety medicine, so I am on edge.  I'm hormonal.  And frankly, I'm scared.  We've had trouble staying pregnant and I'm only 5-6 weeks based on my HcG.  March 30th we go in for our first ultrasound, and I'll feel so much better.

Since I'm Celexa-free I've also got a lot on my mind.  What if it's a girl?  Can I do a girl?  Do I still like the name Autumn, it's what I've always wanted, but now it's reality?  Wait, I don't even know if it's a girl.  But it would be fun to dress a girl.  But a girl will hate me one day.  I'm a boy momma.  Huston needs a brother.  Or a sister.  If it's a boy they can share a room, and clothes and interests.  But if it's a girl I can do a girl nursery.  And get pedis.  Do we need a bigger home?  Will I work after having two?  Can we afford daycare for two?  Will Huston get enough activities if I stay home?  Where should we live?  Why is "kids" so much scarier than "kid"?  Is my car big enough?  I need to start reading how to make Huston feel included.  What if I'm too old to have a healthy baby? Wait, that is college x 2.  First car x 2.  Everything x 2.  Will I ever sleep?  Where is my pump?  We'll need a new stroller.  How would I do a girl nursery?  Ugh.

Huston is so cute about it all.  He is very excited that there is a baby in momma's belly.  Sometimes he has a baby in his belly too.  Then he says, "nooooooooooo" momma's belly.  He goes back and forth between brother or sister.

Doug is cute about it too.  He wants him a little Daddy's girl, but I think he is also terrified of the powers she will have over him.

It's really really early to start blogging and thinking and planning, but I can't help it.  It feels too real.