snooze button

i have never been one to need that much sleep.  oh my that has changed.  i literally want to curl up and hibernate for a week or two.  how can i make this happen?

Oops, we did it again.

So the other day at dinner my Dr. Pepper didn't taste right and I decided I preferred a Coke.  That's when I knew.  Add that up with total exhaustion, raging hormones, acne and dizziness and I decided to confirm it.  Yup, we are pregnant again.  If you are in my "circle" you already know this, but we have held off any broad announcement due to it being so early.  Not many read my blogs anyway, so I decided to start talking about this, um, journey.  This pregnancy feels so different already.  I'm weak, dizzy and nauseous.  I had to quit taking my anxiety medicine, so I am on edge.  I'm hormonal.  And frankly, I'm scared.  We've had trouble staying pregnant and I'm only 5-6 weeks based on my HcG.  March 30th we go in for our first ultrasound, and I'll feel so much better.

Since I'm Celexa-free I've also got a lot on my mind.  What if it's a girl?  Can I do a girl?  Do I still like the name Autumn, it's what I've always wanted, but now it's reality?  Wait, I don't even know if it's a girl.  But it would be fun to dress a girl.  But a girl will hate me one day.  I'm a boy momma.  Huston needs a brother.  Or a sister.  If it's a boy they can share a room, and clothes and interests.  But if it's a girl I can do a girl nursery.  And get pedis.  Do we need a bigger home?  Will I work after having two?  Can we afford daycare for two?  Will Huston get enough activities if I stay home?  Where should we live?  Why is "kids" so much scarier than "kid"?  Is my car big enough?  I need to start reading how to make Huston feel included.  What if I'm too old to have a healthy baby? Wait, that is college x 2.  First car x 2.  Everything x 2.  Will I ever sleep?  Where is my pump?  We'll need a new stroller.  How would I do a girl nursery?  Ugh.

Huston is so cute about it all.  He is very excited that there is a baby in momma's belly.  Sometimes he has a baby in his belly too.  Then he says, "nooooooooooo" momma's belly.  He goes back and forth between brother or sister.

Doug is cute about it too.  He wants him a little Daddy's girl, but I think he is also terrified of the powers she will have over him.

It's really really early to start blogging and thinking and planning, but I can't help it.  It feels too real.

Huston - March 2012

This picture pretty much sums you up.  You are the biggest goofball!  You are such a funny boy and you can always make your momma laugh. Even when I'm trying to be mad.

We had a fun month, you went to see Toy Story Disney on Ice, and you loved every minute of it.  We went to a St. Patrick's parade and carnival and went went to the park.  A lot.  You are becoming a bit of a daredevil and also had lots of "owies" this month (strawberry on your elbow, scraped arm, scraped knee, HUGE gooseegg, and shins full of bruises).  You have learned how to use the scooter at Nama's (never mind that it is your cousin Jazzmin's and is princess pink) and you LOVE to skateboard with your Uncle Paul Paul.

Some of your funny sayings lately are:

• You hear a stomach growl, "I heard your tummy talking!"
• "Play toys?"
• We tell you to do something, you roll your eyes "Ahhhhkay".
• After bath time you run around the house "I'm NAKED BOY!"
• Nama blows you kisses, "I put it in my heart."
• "My turn, my turn"
• Wrestling with Daddy, "ALLLL night, baby!"

We have to start watching what we say too, because you told Daddy that Momma was a "turkey butt" the other day.  You asked Momma "Daddy beat you?" when you saw a bruise on my leg and have turned our playful "shut up" to each other to a very non-playful one when you want.

You have also learned the words to "Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star", "Happy Birthday" and usually morph those two together with the alphabet and numbers.  You count to 8, sometimes higher and can do your ABC's pretty good.  You are obsessed with colors and shapes and point them out on everything you see.

You have also found a new love.  Super Heros.  You have decided Spiderman and Superman are your favorite "superguys".  You have also found Star Wars and still love your Yo Gabba Gabba and Toy Story guys.  They are all your "guys".

You also moved out of your toddler bed into a twin bed and now there is so much room.  You sleep with lots of toys, and sometimes momma when she falls asleep with you.

To get you ready for your first visit, you went to the dentist with momma.  You got right in my mouth with the hygienist and looked for a bit, decided it was no big deal and played the rest of the time.  Then when they told me I was doing a good job flossing and brushing, you informed them that your brush your teeth too and did a demonstration.

You still love "school" and tell me all about your friends the whole commute home.  You are learning a lot there and on sharing day you take toys that specific kids will like.  The other day you were so excited to take Spiderman, because "Bodi like Spiderman".

Now, all the cuteness aside, you are getting pretty stubborn.  You will repeat things back at me in a mean little voice, tell me no and even occasionally hit at me.  Notice I don't say that you do this to Dad.  If Dad looks at you the right way, you say "No Spanks!"  Obviously I need to get better at my spanks.... 

I can't write a post without telling you how handsome, smart, funny and amazing you are.  Every day your make us so proud and make our hearts swell.  We love you!